Tormented cities. // Jackie & Sophie.
Nothing was cut and dry, no matter how much Jackie wanted to be happy for Sophie, she couldn’t be completely happy that her friend was just picking up and leaving. Especially when it wasn’t even her time to go yet. At least in Jackie’s eyes it wasn’t. She knew that Sophie would eventually leave, but she didn’t think that Soph would graduate early. Jackie had actually started opening up to people, letting people in and now she just wanted to close herself off again because she had that gut feeling she’d get hurt in the end. Like now. At least she had Sophie for another year. That was plenty of time to get used to the fact that she was going to be here in Senn by herself next year. She wasn’t going to have the person that protected her all the time. It was fine, for now she’d plaster on a smile and pretend that she was incredibly okay with the whole thing because that’s what Sophie deserved. She deserved to be happy and Jackie was going to be happy for her.
Jackie didn’t have a clue, but she knew one of the safest things they could do that was a bit reckless was drink. She didn’t really know why she had this overwhelming urge to down cheap booze but it was something a normal teen would do. And just for once? Jackie wanted to feel normal. With Sophie at least she didn’t have to feel awkward and not know what to say or do. They could just sit there and drink while talking about the stupidest things on the planet and she wouldn’t care. It was Sophie, even if Jackie was dumb and insecure, she always told her straight out that things would be okay. And she had to believe that. Especially now. At the text she looked at herself one final time in the mirror. Wearing a pair of jean shorts that had been cut off from an old pair of pants and a tank top, she headed out towards the water hole. Seemed as good of place as any. Thankfully she’d worn her bikini underneath her clothes, just in case.
Hopping on her bike and making her way towards the hole, she thought about things again briefly. Then she realized her parents were working late that night and Shay? Well he was nowhere to be seen. Probably at the den (or so she hoped and he wasn’t in a jail cell). If they happened to drink too much, if they made it back to her place they’d be fine. If a hangover happened, she knew how to whip that gross thing that Shay drank and had aspirin. They’d be fine. But it was insanely hot and Jackie sighed. Sophie of course was smart for thinking of the water hole, it would be a lot cooler there with the shade of the trees and such. And shortly after she began her journey, she arrived at the trail that led downward, following it she looked around for Sophie, waving when she finally saw her. “Hey,” finishing the walk down, she climbed over to her and sat down. That fake smile? Yup, totally on her face right now. “How long have you been here?”
“Not long.” She said answering Jackie’s question and shrugging. Sophie wasn’t sure how this was supposed to go. She wasn’t even sure how you got beer bottles opened. She should have thought about that because if they could even open them then it would just all be in vain. Then she realized that she had indeed put in a bottle opener. Sophie felt proud of herself in that moment but she was still not sure how this was going to work. She shouldn’t be nervous, there was no reason for her to be nervous if it was just her and Jackie but somehow this felt irrational, like she was in some sort of dream and not actually here with her. “How exactly is this going to go…?” Sophie asked once Jackie had taken a seat beside her. She could tell that Jackie wasn’t happy and could only imagine why but she really didn’t want to talk about that. At least not while she was sober anyway. Sophie brought over the bag where she’d packed all the alcohol and showed it to Jackie. “Do you think this is enough?” She wondered.
Sophie wasn’t sure how her parents would react if they found out. She knew she could probably sleep over at Jackie’s sober or not and they wouldn’t care too much because that’s just how Jackie’s parents were but her parents were a whole other story. They would probably talk to her about how she was being stupid and she only thought about herself and ask her if she wanted to wind up like them; stuck in a little town with no where to go because she just didn’t do enough for herself even though she’d spent her entire life preparing for college. She wasn’t even sure she wanted to go to college anymore she just wanted to get away from them. As far away from her parents as she possibly could and then she would be able to lead some other life away from everyone here. Sophie would miss Jackie of course, she would also miss a couple of people she’d gotten to talk to around here but she had to keep moving; keep doing what was best for her and not let anyone else rule her life. She’d worked so hard building all these walls and Jackie had seemed to just walk right through them and now there was a part of her that wanted to stick up to her parents and tell them she wasn’t leaving, not now and maybe not ever.